The beauty of Journaling

I took a personal leave of absence; I hope you noticed (insert nervous laugh.) My energy was needed elsewhere and that is where I directed it. When it comes to this blog, it is my fourth child. I nurture it, and I want it to be authentic and a reflection of who I am as a person at this point in time. I needed time to recharge and I am back!

I have been doing lots of self-care these past few weeks. I am not awesome at self-care, guys. I kind of suck at it honestly, but I am always working on it. These past few weeks, give me a sec to pat myself on the back, I’ve been doing awesome! I’ve been doing all kinds of skin care, if you know me YOU know I love me some skincare! I’ve been doing so much decluttering, real life and hypothetical, I have been reading more than usual, and A LOT of journaling.

Let’s talk about journaling, why not? I feel like when I say journaling people automatically think it’s a diary with a lock and a matching heart shaped key. Guys, it is so much more than that! We have all heard the word manifestation, right? For myself, it has been a great way to get myself to a place where I can get my thoughts down, see a clear picture, and set goals. My entries don’t start off with “Dear Diary,” not for the last 15+ years anyway. Between my planner and my journal, I get things done, I’m working on the manifestation portion of it all ha! I love my skin care, crystals, planner, and journal. I guess that’s a pretty good description of who I am nowadays. Who Noemi is outside of motherhood.

I’ve been reading, You are a Badass, by Jen Sincero. I’m not done yet, but it’s a good read. I especially love the quotes! This book has been an awesome tool in getting me out of my funk. I usually read and journal shortly after, no particular reason just my preference. I am not so great at journaling. I do it every so often, but not regularly. I’ve had the same journal since 2017, yea I know! Journaling has done a lot for me; it allows me to put my thoughts down on paper and really analyze what is going on. It gives me the clarity to find the root of things, and it makes it so much easier to process things that can otherwise be upsetting. I took up journaling when Camila was born. I remember seeing a therapist, and she suggested that I journal. It has been an excellent tool for me, and I am so grateful for it!

As you can imagine, my mental health suffered a lot when Camila was born. I neglected myself for months, and I took it upon myself to search for help. I’ve read about postpartum depression, and I’ve heard personal testimonies, and I knew I didn’t want to go to such a dark place when I needed to be present for my Camila. At the beginning of her life, we didn’t know what was going to be the outcome. We were optimistic, but the doctors were honest. I had never been to therapy before, no one I knew had ever seen a therapist or at least talked about it, this was all new territory for me. Sometimes when I talk about therapy, people are kind of standoffish. It makes me sad that mental health is still a taboo to some and something that they are not comfortable with. I saw a therapist, and that doesn’t make me crazy or weak. Seeing a therapist was a personal choice I made for myself and my well being. Shit hit that fan, guys, I needed all the celestial, holy, and human help I could get.